I used to spent time going through codebases, learning about all the services and trying to build stuff with them. Other people have to pay for these resource and I got a dev account.
Well 2 years later, that fire is gone. I'm trying to recreate the habits I had that kept me hungry. But I think I need a different mindset.
Does anyone related to feeling complacent and being ungrateful?
If the question asks “does anyone [else]”, the answer is always “yes”.
Perhaps you need to find a new pasture? Perhaps this one turned muddy. Two years is often “long enough” at any one position.
IMO, at the beginning of a software career you're excited enough just doing the thing. But to keep the fire burning you need to do work that you actually care about. If you don't care about your employer's product or purpose, you've got nothing.
You sure about that? I know thats what every one says but lets face it, being a dev at FAANG is like being a chef at McDonald's. It sounds like you are taking it seriously and really trying to make your lifes best work, I bet your boss hates you and wishes you would just make the big mac as instructed.
Your mindset is trigger by your environment, change your environment the mindset will change without any effort. Trying to change your mindset in an enviornment that triggers a complacent mindset will drive you mad please don't try.
Get a job where your enthusiasim is appreciated and encouraged, stop trying to make soufflé at McDonald's.
But maybe what you were doing is no longer work.
Or maybe it never was.
Or maybe you have grown over two years.
Yes probably that. Good luck.