How to Get Back in Life?

Sounds like burnout. Here's a few articles which may help:

https://kierantie.com/a/burnout

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/09/05/smarter-living/workplace-...

https://muddylemon.com/2011/05/27/depression-burn-out-and-wr...

More details would help. But, in general, when trying to solve a very big problem, it helps to break it into several small problems, and start solving them instead.

You have so much time. You have so much time. Take a deep breath. There's still time to move forward.

I sat down and started tracking all of my time. Specifically anything productive in my day.

I set goals and went from depressed / burnt out barely breaking 14hrs a week to over 50 now.

Progress is slow, it feels like I'm behind my peers both in terms of skill and $$ but progress feels okay for now.

I'm nearing my 30s and it sucks but progress is all you can work towards - understanding what you really want is important.

I realized I wanted nothing to do with the "game" being played by my friends in New York so I left, got over it and I'm much happier now.

What are your most pressing problems?

Do you have enough food, shelter, and money to carry you through the next few months? If not, that's probably the first goal.

Do you have an income, from steady work or from another source, that allows you to maintain a basic standard of living? If not, that's probably the second goal.

Do you have an income, but your job sucks, is unfulfilling, or you want a higher standard of living? Changing your work or primary activities for more money or more fulfillment is probably your third goal.

Do you have enough people in your life to meet your emotional needs? Do you have some creative outlet or spiritual practice? If not, finding some sort of fulfillment is probably your last goal.

4/4 is quite hard to do! Start with where you are now, and try to make whatever progress you can.

If you've got physical health problems, you've gotta do what you can with those, and if you've got dependents you've got to take care of them too as best you can.

Last, the way you phrased things sounds similar to the way that people in who are depressed talk. So I'm going to go out on a limb: Depression fucking sucks in ways that people who haven't been depressed struggle to understand. If you're depressed things are going to be harder and take way longer than you'd like. But most people who get depressed are not depressed forever. Most depression comes in episodes that eventually lift. Many who get depressed are able to eventually build fulfilling and happy lives. There's hope. If you're in the pits you might not be capable of feeling hope right now, but it is there, and it is possible for things to get better.