That being said, my life has almost come grinding to a halt. It has been 3 months and I am still struggling to get back to a decent baseline. I am beginning to wonder if it is possible to live life without them, which is an additional strain on my emotions.
Has anyone here gone down a similar path to treat this in their own way without schedule I controlled substances?
First, if you want to radically change your life by no longer taking stimulants, you need to recalibrate what you expect your life to look like.
You know they change how you think and behave, which is why you took them, and so it’s a given that your life just won’t look the same without them.
It’ll take time, but you need to figure out what your life can look like without them and make that your baseline. You’re always going to have an “additional strain on your emotions” when you try to make an unmedicated life look like a medicated life.
Maybe you work less or on different things. Maybe your home is less organized. Maybe you nap more. Maybe you’re friendlier and more empathetic with people you care about. Maybe you have a dozen slowly progressing hobbies instead of one diligent passion. Maybe you exercise or meditate more. Maybe you chill with woo hippie vibes instead of chasing life as a type-A achiever. Who knows. As you adapt, try to identify positive changes and define those as the new baseline you’re measuring yourself against.
You didn’t need medication in the first place. It’s a choice you made to live a certain kind of life. Now, you’re revisiting that choice and are pursuing a different kind of life. That’s exciting! But you have to embrace that rather than fear it, or you’re just going to torture yourself.
[1] https://www.betterhelp.com
2. I wrote a script to run my life for me, you should consider doing the same.
[2] https://taylor.town/nowify
3. Find something to obsess over! Everything comes to a screeching halt when the spark of life eludes me.
4. Consider using a service like FocusMate to stay on task. It's a form of "body-doubling".
[4] https://chadd.org/adhd-news/adhd-news-adults/could-a-body-do...
0. Be kind to yourself. You don't deserve to suffer. Your brain is always lying to you about how bad you feel. It's really hard to live your life "like everyone else" with the ADHD gremlins chattering away in there.
1. Remind yourself every morning you are starting a new day, and every evening that you did the best you could, that you succeeded in some things, and that tomorrow is a new day.
2. Make yourself do 15 minutes of intense cardio exercise every day no matter what. Think of it like brushing your brain's teeth. Set out your exercise clothes, car keys, and fill your water bottle several hours before you plan to do this.
3. Make a schedule for your sleep, food, water, and exercise. Every day, try to do the same routine. Moderate amounts of caffeine are good too. (A few cups of black tea during the day is just about right for me.)
4. Talk to a therapist regularly, and be honest with yourself and your therapist. Therapists helped me learn to be more kind to myself and less shameful. And that change in mindset helped me feel better and dramatically reduced my ADHD symptoms as much or more than the medicine.
Dopamine deficiency and Shame cause a feedback loop that makes your ADHD worse. Make it a routine to disrupt both.
I totally understand the desire not to deal with getting and taking the medicine. For me, I could only manage my ADHD with both medicine and therapy. It's OK if you need drugs sometimes. It's OK if you go without them.
I’ve had undiagnosed ADHD since I was a teen (now 32) and recently got a diagnosis and started using medication (Vyvanse).
Without a doubt the only thing that has ever come close to helping me feel “normal” has been exercising regularly. Whether it was going for a run, or lifting weights, the stillness you feel through medication is something I only felt after a nice workout.
So that’s what i’d recommend. Put your physical health first, eat better, exercise regularly, and top it off with something low effort but high reward like yoga or meditation. That is the only way.
https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/09/exercise-...
Yours might be heavier in some aspects and lighter in others. It's also often tied to other psychological issues.
Not everything works the same for everyone. For "vanilla ADHD" the most impairing factors will often be:
- Executive function. This can be organisation, getting started or keeping up with dopamine depleting tasks (chores, bills, etc.) and keeping track of time during tasks
- Emotional regulation. This can be emotional reactivity (often called RSD online), or other all sorts of difficulties dealing with emotions in a productive way. This one is often left out in discussions but the most harmful for life outcomes (especially frustration/anger based dysregulations)
- Short term memory issues. Part of executive function but should be noted specifically.
The first thing to note is natural external dopamine will help. This is getting proper sleep, nutrition and exercise. Exercise, especially intense activities like HIIT will help regulate dopamine naturally.
For executive function, the best is to have a system. There are plenty out there (bullet journals, productivity apps, etc.) Find one that you actually use without forcing yourself to. Can be a TODO list in google keep/apple notes, or a Bullet Journal or something like TikTik
For short term memory issues, write everything down. This often plays into the system above.
For emotional regulation, DBT is the best place to start. The DBT workbook can be freely found as a PDF online.
Russell Barkley has good information: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzhbAK1pdPM&list=PLzBixSjmbc...
Getting a ADHD aware therapist, if financially feasible, is a good idea. Be critical of online communities, there's both good and bad in there.
Examples that I've found work for me:
- Instead of trying to force myself to do something I'm simply not motivated about, looking for an intersection between the things that currently sound interesting and the things that would be productive. Making the most of the energy I have, when I have it
- Even if I'm jumping around - sometimes I get tiny bursts of energy for several different things in rapid succession - over time I may end up making progress on all of them. Instead of trying to pin myself to focus on just one, embracing the interlacing lets me take advantage of as much energy as possible
- My energy is highly momentum- and dopamine-based; if I'm struggling to be motivated about one thing, sometimes I can "prime the pump" by doing something small/easy first, and then I'll have more energy to carry over into the bigger thing
- Learning ways to sort of re-frame a task, or "tempt" myself into becoming interested in it (pressure doesn't work, but there are other ways)
Everybody's different though. Best of luck
It's nothing that addresses ADHD directly but it's the best thing she's found to cope and get her back on track.
I would advise some caution with ADHD meds and how you quit as well. I know it's extremely uncommon but someone close to me suffered a psychotic break directly after quitting cold turkey. The quitting may have even been an effect of the psychosis but in an abundance of caution please be mindful of your headspace and if there are any red flags, please talk to someone about it.
Our mental health is more fragile than we realize, we need to talk about it so we can all deal with these issues more effectively.
There's a lot of great advice here and I'm glad you reached out. Keep it up - you are not alone friend.
The most helpful frame I’ve found for self improvement is to focus on what’s happening in your own body/mind/environment and tend to it and make it better from where it is. As opposed to having a plan/dream and trying to contort yourself to achieve it.
Ok, specific tips:
1. Exercise is fuel for your mind. I walk every morning and punctuate long periods of work with walks.
2. Think in terms of ‘now’. Eg I am choosing to play video games now. I am choosing to ___ now - In order for something to happen, sometime it needs to happen ‘now’.
3. Something that has been helpful to me is talking through problems. (I do this on my walks using a voice notes app). I don’t understand what’s at work here but it’s deeply profound.
Here's the strategy that worked for me for more than a decade now:
1. Getting the chemical baseline right: Make sure you have enough Magnesium, Potassium, B-complex and Vitamin D. Without these, everything else, including therapy or spiritual explorations, will likely fail. If you have trouble sleeping Mg Glycine + 5HTP are a great combo sans the side effects of let's say melatonine or benzos. Eat LOTS of meat, at least a dozen eggs a week, fish oil and seafood in general. 2. Nootropics: Piracetam + L-Theanine + Black seed oil (pills) + Alpha GPC have significant effect over time. You won't feel the immediate boost like with Adderal but small increments that will change your life over time. 3. Being hyperactive means no carbs. Nothing makes me more hyperactive than an insulin spike. Staying on low carb, keto and one meal a day is the best way to maintain mood stability. 4. If 5HTP and Glycine are great for boosting serotonin, L-tyrosine is amazing for boosting dopamine. I've discovered it last year and it's been a gift that keeps on giving. I've tried Modafinil and ended up in super weird mental states (mild paranoia, anxiety etc). L-tyrosine has been nothing but wonderful. Complete game changer. 5. Sports&hormetic stressors – make sure you have enough physical activity and healthy levels of other physical stress (e.g. cold temperature). Your brain will thank you for those endorphin releases post workout.
For most of your life, people call you lazy, inattentive, annoying.
You try to keep up with schoolwork/work/taxes/chores/XYZ but the activity makes you want to vomit from the tightness in your chest and the mental fog that creeps whenever you want to just get done with it.
The majority of people believe ADHD does not exist, and keep leading you down a road where your self-esteem keeps getting destroyed more and more when no methods seems to work effectively.
When you get diagnosed, which in most parts of the world is so hard it'd be easier to plan your suicide; and you get prescribed medication, people call you a drug addict.
ADHD is one of the most researched disorders and the most treatable, but the majority of people who have it are hardly diagnosed and their problems are never taken seriously, because neurotypicals have a hard time relating with the experience.
You always have noise in your head. You can never relax. You always have to be doing something. You have a constant monologue going in your head and made up scenarios.
You're either stuck trying to start a task for two hours, or obsessively doing something for 12 hours.
Comorbid anxiety disorder is very common to have developed from all the childhood trauma resulting from ADHD.
Finally, for me at least, it was the harder task of prioritizing regular F2F social interaction and attention to developing quality friendships over many months that contributed to my biggest gains in executive function. I did this for other quality of life reasons at the prompting of my partner, and was surprised by this unexpected positive result.
Godspeed, stranger!
Doing work you actually enjoy helps, also task sequencing, for me at least, context switches are very expensive, so I try to schedule like-like work back to back.
I also tend to use the 'buddy' system for doing things like, organizing stuff around the house, and cleaning, which means someone to hang out with me, and often help me not get distracted. If I try to organize alone, I will get one box of shit taken apart, then as I go put it away, I find other things that need putting up, and move them, and at the end of the day the whole house is a mess, and I have no idea why.
Things that help:
1. No/few simple carbs before lunch (I used to skip breakfast until I realized it wasn't all breakfasts that were the problem). Focusing is hard enough without being drowsy from hypoglycemia
2. Exercise. You'll probably be able to force yourself to run regularly for a week or two and then give up, so find something more interesting. I personally do martial arts that have some form of sparring because competition gets me engaged. Less competitive people might want to find something else; there are several forms of dance that are highly technical, so can be mentally engaging for years.
3. Structure & Boundaries. As swatcoder says in another comment, you just aren't likely to be as "together" as someone who isn't ADHD, so maybe you decide "I'll clean for 15 minutes a day" or "I'll make my bed before eating breakfast" or whatever, but pick small, attainable, measurable goals for the things that are likely to fall through the cracks, and set aside specific times to do them. This will both keep you from looking like a complete slob and also help you feel like an "adult" (which is important for emotional well-being).
Worked wonders for me, I also follow rules like “if it takes less than 2 minutes do it now” and I make checklists in the morning
I haven’t needed medication for years now, am super productive, and feel 10,000% better
If so, here are a few leads:
• Buproprion (Wellbutrin) is an NDRI but is not a controlled substance. Its on-label use is for depression or anxiety, but has been used off-label for treatment of ADHD. Many people are prescribed it as an adjunct therapy to regular depression/anxiety treatment when they also seem to have some ADHD symptoms, or when the drug they're taking for treatment of depression/anxiety causes ADHD symptoms.
• Bromantane is a non-scheduled and in fact non-prescription "nootropic" drug (it's a licensed OTC medication in the countries it's produced in; but is just considered a "supplement" in North America) that specifically aims to treat dopaminergic receptor depletion, by — apparently — triggering the permanent growth of new dopaminergic receptors. Some people phrase this as it "healing" your reward system. (It can apparently be used to undo some of the long-term effects of meth use on the reward system.) ADHD is technically a syndrome, in that it has many possible root causes (etiologies); one of those potential root causes is a decrease in dopamine receptivity in the brain, or a decrease in dopamine production. Both of these problems are treated by growing more dopamine receptors. If your ADHD has that particular etiology, then it may benefit you to try this. (In practice, it worked, at least for me. I took some for a while when I ran out of Vyvanse myself, and it indeed treated my ADHD, though in a very different-feeling way than Vyvanse does. When I stopped taking it, and resumed Vyvanse treatment, I found that I needed a lower dose of the Vyvanse going forward.)
• Tricyclic antidepressants are dopaminergic and unscheduled. You'd have a lot of side-effects from these if you aren't also depressed / anxious; but if you are, they're a good solution.
• MAOIs are everything-ergic, and unscheduled. They're also pretty awful. (You can't eat cheese!) Last resort.
1. Get enough sleep.
2. No Alcohol
3. Quit caffeine. It does help with attention for a very short period, but the sleep disruption outweighs any perceived benefit for me. Even a single coffee in the morning I find messes with my sleep.
4. regular exercise several days a week.
I still struggle, but since I've made these lifestyle changes I'm able to compensate much better, and my mood is much improved as well which helps with the self-defeating thoughts that inevitability go along with ADHD. Like you I was previously on stimulants but for multiple reasons opted to get off them years ago.
This is who I am. It's not any kind of problem unless you're being forced into some kind of work where it IS a problem, but then that kind of work isn't for you.
To keep myself feeling good and busy, I work on a TON of creative stuff, sci-fi stories, film scripts etc, and can just put in a note or whatever as I think of it, then back to doing work. And I do tech work where I can have a lot of different tasks and different ways to approach them, which allows for 'jumping around' while still staying ultimately on task.
Software can help a lot as well. For example I started using TeXStudio to organize my ideas because of their navigation pane (most of my tex files just have sections and subsections and no other LaTeX).
All of that is to say instead of trying to force yourself to fit into some kind of mold, create a new mold that fits you perfectly. A mold should come from you, you shouldn't be trying to force into one.
I think just the clinician book is enough but you can try getting the client book as well.
https://www.amazon.com/Mastering-Your-Adult-ADHD-Cognitive-B...
You may want to look into a sun lamp to help you do this during the shorter days.
- Exercise.
- Change of diet. (No junk food, learned to cook)
- No/limit/control caffeine.
I only ingest caffeine when my behavior isn't critical, ie I can have coffee if my tasks are all computer related. But if there is a meeting with people in the day, I don't drink coffee because I know I will do or say something "wrong" at the meeting.
Caffeine at least it greatly increases the odds of me having a hard time in a particular event, especially if something unexpected happens.
It can turn normal event into a difficult one, and hard one into an unbearable experience.
- Forcing myself to remain calm.
The more I do this the better control I get. It's never easy, so I fail and try again. And again and again.
- Plan/train ahead of time.
I mentally practice an event that causes me issues. Everything from conversations, to procrastination, distractions, etc... I go through in my head how I want something to happen and how I want to react or choose to behave in advance. So when it does happen I have a fighting chance. A few go arounds with this (failing each time) and eventually I get a better result.
It took me practice and work and accepting discomfort on a nearly constant and daily occurrence, and to just accept this discomfort as normal. (the end secret)
I think you are in a harder place because you are used to something and now have to learn to "feel" different. Just keep trying and you will eventually feel different, it's just how life works. We get used to what we force our selves to accept. (within limits of course, right?)
Just don't give up. Fail thousands of times, but just keep going because you have already discovered you don't want to go back.
Try something new whenever you have to. These past years I've tried many, many new things because "I just don't want to keep doing what I've already done", which is similar to your situation, you have committed to something, the hardest part is over.
This time around I quit in consultation with a really good psychiatrist (they are out there) and he had me slowly tapper my dose over a 6 months period. This was a WAY better experience then quitting cold turkey. My sleep has been better than when I was on adderrall and my focus has actually been better than when I was on a low dosage of the stuff.work
2. Meditation
Huberman’s supps formula:
300mg Alpha-GPC - 500mg Phenylethylamine - 500mg L-Tyrosine (sometimes)
*Note*: Don’t take these after 2-3 p.m. if you intend to sleep that night.
But I think you want to get away from taking them.
This is not strictly an answer to your question, sorry, but I still hope it helps.
Coping skills and support.
Coping skills:
- Structured decision-making for medium- and big-things
- Time management
- Timeboxing
- Time blocks
- Timers
- Task management - Have a simple, algorithmic system such as GTD
- Minimize interruptions
- Performance & goals management - Dispassionate self-evaluation, self-awareness, and seeking professional feedback at work
- Idea management - Set aside inessential thoughts, ideas, and concerns
- Mind maps, idea repository, and/or notes
- Writing as a tool for thought refinement - Think like a lawyer: nuanced word choices' and
arrangements' effects on meaning - Think like an editor: eliminate and rephrase copy until every word is both clear and necessary
- Think like your audience: How is this relevant to them?
What do they need to know?- Accountability, both self and setting up external forcing functions
- Sharpen interpersonal effectiveness
- Active listening - Pausing our thoughts and agenda to
express internalization of another's with paraphrasing and
asking questions - Meeting management - Encourage quiet voices, slow down
louder ones - Mentoring - In many aspects of modern life, there isn't
enough of thisSupport: Work has a secret support group. Prevalence is 20%+.
In my case:
Methylphenidate and mixed amphetamine raised my blood pressure and did more harm than good.
Atomoxetine side-effects were untenable, including sweating, altered consciousness, urinary problems, and anxiety.
One anti-depressant helps in an off-label capacity, however the sexual side-effects were life impairing.
Treatment resistant depression is also present. 3 antidepressants currently. Looking at medical dissociatives, psychedelics, and TMS.
Perhaps:
Ask for a 90 day supply if that's an option.
Consider the benefits vs. costs rather than making a change because something is difficult. Life is difficult. Difficult things will need to be done.
Chamomile tea
Passionflower tea
Lemon balm tea.
Lots and lots of water.
Oxygen
Dronezone
Pomodoros