Check out the leanfire subreddit.
The loop doesn’t need to be eternal. Freelancing can quickly become its own loop. Not shooting down that path but visualizing your real exit from a monotony that drives you crazy is what matters right now :).
all of my work hours involved a lot of leaning other departments, expanding my knowledge of stakeholders and they roles, and deeper understanding of business growth and vision.
If you don't like your job go get a different one.
> flexibility on executing,
> less micromanagement,
> less useless meetings,
> less useless teams engagement,
> less lots of useless shit (smalltalk, amenities, etc.)
If it's really that bad then get a new job.