In the past I have felt like this is goofing off and needs to be done in my time but now with family commitments there is no time outside of work to read up on the libraries and tools we are using at work. The only option I feel like I have is to learn at work. While I do more than my 40 hours every week I still feel guilty. Is this normal?
> While I do more than my 40 hours every week I still feel guilty.
Guilty? Did you murder someone? Rob a bank? Cheat on your taxes?
> Is this normal?
No. Consider talking to you boss and colleagues about skills, training, research, innovation and how the company rewards you for your autodidactic initiative. If that doesn't work out and your boss just wants you to mop the floor, consider looking for a job where you feel more appreciated and free to grow.
I strongly suggest you reconsider that position if you hold to that in any way, shape, form, or fashion. Learning is absolutely part of your job. And if people (eg management) in your organization tell you otherwise, leave and go work somewhere that isn't run by morons.