I'm feeling lost and miserable and I think a lot of it has to do with my complete lack of direction. I'm hoping someone more experienced can just tell me what to do next so I have a goal to work towards. I feel too numb to set any goals of my own - none of the options get me out of bed.
Some background about me.
I'm 22. I graduated about a year ago with a degree in Economics from a respected public university in the US. I'm a self taught programmer - never taken a CS course but I'm competent with Python, know my way around Linux, and learning Go. I'm fairly intelligent but not a genius.
I am working in a financial non-engineering role since graduation, but dropped my hours to part time because my anxiety and depression were getting worse and worse. So now I have a lot of free time. I'm still living at home.
Panic attacks have been getting worse but I'm seeing a therapist now and discussing medication so I am working on that.
I've thought about CS Masters programs or trying to get a real programming job but I worry my skills aren't up to scratch and I don't have enough projects on GitHub. I'd love to start a business but I have no idea which excites me.
I wish someone could just tell me "Do X" and I will just work toward that, setting sub-goals until I reach X. I feel like I'm on the verge of slipping into a failed life.