A lot of this is probably due to missing out but at one point I had enough that at current market prices would be just north of 100 million USD. It's honestly an insanely absurd number to think about but could have completely changed the trajectory of my life.
While I made some money selling (2013), it was just enough to pay off my loans, buy a place and invest a bit but nothing close to its current valuation. So another thing that bums me out is that I just couldn't see it growing much beyond what it was then. I understood the use cases but didn't really see the absurd growth as a possibility.
Of late, I've been having these obsessive and debilitating thoughts about a life that could have been possible if I had the foresight to hold on to even half of what I had instead of cashing out then.
The fact that I will probably only achieve a similar level of financial success is if I get extremely lucky over the next few decades while trading the next 20-30 years of my life working is a bit depressing. I have nothing against hard work and that's probably the route I'll be taking now but given the choice of that instead of investing in experiencing the world around me more richly and deeply, helping out my family and friends in a more meaningful way, I just feel awful amounts of regret at having thrown away a winning hand.
These recent thoughts have been triggered by reading some old comments of mine about bitcoin on online forums and I'm having difficulty shutting these thoughts down. I know the answer on some levels is therapy. Is there any other advice besides get over it and therapy though? I'm assuming there are probably others that may have been in similar positions?
I bought my first Bitcoins around 2011 and did a little bit of trading and ordering pizzas and whatnot early on. I think cumulatively I may have had about 60 Bitcoin over these last ten years. Early last year I sold the last ones to get a nice apartment. So in some ways I'm in a similar situation, though I would "only" have about a million Euros if I cashed out now vs. your 100 million.
I don't have regrets about buying pizzas for prices that would now correspond to extra rooms to my apartment or whatever: If we early market participants hadn't been willing to spend Bitcoin and to sell it off to other traders, there wouldn't have been a market, and the project would have died. Interested parties wouldn't have been able to get Bitcoin, the infrastructure around it wouldn't have developed, and the price today would be zero. We took one for the team, and we both did profit from it nicely as well. Yes, others profited more, but that doesn't keep me awake at night.
What I do have regret-like feelings about is selling around March-April last year, in the middle of a local minimum. Waiting until now, in hindsight, would have netted me close to 5x the returns, but it seemed highly implausible at the time. And I'm happy with the place I bought, even compared to significantly more expensive properties I see on the market.
Um, I have no real conclusion except I can relate to how you feel. I find my job interesting, but often tedious, and am looking forward to saving up and hopefully being able to retire around age 50-55. Hang in there! And yes, therapy/mild antidepressants are good things to try. Good luck!
What a fatuous remark! It's one thing to have junked a painting that turned out to be a Rembrandt, or let your one true love "get away."
It's another utterly banal thing to have closed a market position in a liquid commodity. Your having closed it in 2013 is just as unremarkable as your "losing out" on any number of bets you could make *today* which would result in 100M in profit a year or even an hour from now.
A third approach is to acknowledge that, indeed, if you could predict the future, you’d be fabulously wealthy, but there’s nothing different about this example than any other one. If you’d purchased Tesla in January 2020, you’d be up about 8x, if you bought call options on X in Y, etc. The fact that you owned Bitcoin at one point doesn’t make it any more or less applicable, since you could have bought it at that time anyway.
If you want to beat yourself up over something, pick a decision that had a positive NPV at that time, not a decision that requires seeing the future (like this one).
Of course that's sometimes easier said than done, but replaying that thought in my head usually helps.
This makes me rather conservative, and I mostly end up buying VTSAX.
I have Bitcoin that I bought in 2014, and sold 50% of my position in the bull run of 2017. I cannot sell any until 2024, even if I’d probably benefit by selling some now :-)
Sticking to this rule helps minimizing regret. Obviously it won’t completely catch investing in AAPL early etc.
The question is did you make the most of the information you had available at the time? If yes, then there is nothing else you could have done. You couldn't have acted differently since you couldn't have known what you know today.
If no, then try to learn from the experience and move on. You can't change the past so no point in dwelling on it.
Do I regret ?, I don't know.
I just let it go.
At least you paid your bills.