Which brings me to : how does one climb up from bad situations? Not just career wise, but life in general. Especially if one is in their 40s and 50s with responsibilities (kids, mortgage etc).
I lost my wife house and family all at once when I was 42. "How do I start again when my life is nearly over?" I spent several weeks just staring at the wall. A friend asked me what I did before I was married. 'Travelling' I said. "Well, do that again." she said.
So I did. Being self-dependent for six weeks got me out of my depression. Within a month or two, friends came out of the wood-work. Within six months, I had to choose which of two women I would stay with.
I chose well, 32 years later we're still together.
"You have to like yourself first, before others can like you."
Secondly, make positive progress every day. Make some money, even if it's not enough yet. Cut expenses to the bone, and then cut more. (We managed to keep our house, but in retrospect, should have sold it and downsized.) The good news is that both my wife and I have good jobs now, and we're socking away enough money to dig out of the hole. It's not fun, but we're heading up. Hang in there, and make sure you do something to move the ball forward every single day. And seriously, find a prayer and/or bible study group to help you through - these are tough times, and we're stronger together, but realize that none of us has any strength next to the one who created you and everything else. (Not to get preachy, but Chrisitianity really is the most uplifting and freeing thing ever - all your screwups have been paid for, and if you just believe that, you are adopted into the family of the God of the Universe. That's pretty amazing good news, and the ultimate empowerment!)
Emotional rock bottom: probably goes in hand with the former. Anyway, don't blame yourself. I dunno who made the call and on what grounds they made it. That kind of stuff eats you, especially if you don't know.
In any case I urge you to keep going and wish you all the best. Much to wonder, and live for.
Deus Ex Machina, crypto started its rampage of a bull run. In desperation I started sifting through old hard drives. I found about 20 and was able to sell near the top (~$400k).
I don't have anything useful, just an observation that it's a bit scary how strong momentum can be, whether positive or negative.