It's whatever reason you want it to or it simply just is. Pondering on it doesn't help live it well; in fact, usually the opposite.
It's a gift. Don't look a gift horse in the mouth. I count innumerable reasons for gratitude even though I:
- can't work (just got SSDI after a 10 year Byzantine odyssey)
- can't have friends
- have no money
- live in a van
- to save bullet-points: also ADHD, mild Asperger's, treatement-resistant depression (tried 14 medications), sleep apnea, insomnia, high blood pressure, tachycardia, undiagnosed connective tissue disorder, stutter, hunch-back, osteoarthritis, overweight/skinny extremities, a torn shoulder, plantar fasciitis, gradual neurological decline (I can't code or focus anymore), and failing vision (ARMD runs in my family).
- And TMJ, vestibular schwannoma, or vascular stenosis because all I can think about is the pain in my ear, neck, throat, and head while the ER CT radiologist said "it's nothing" while my ear rings, feels like a spike is in my head, and I hear my pulse constantly.
^ These aren't complaints, per se, but facts for perspective.
Life is suffering. Make the best of the available opportunities in the now with as much grace as one can muster. Fuck biology and existential uncertainty, and just squeeze the juice of life because it'll all be over in a flash anyhow. Why not have a good time for as long and as often as possible? Fuck it.
I would things, jump in the deep end, get the fuck out of your comfort-zone, and give fewest fucks short of going Jim Morrison. Don't die in retirement in front of a TV or be like a modern human staring at glowing screens waiting by the phone for outrage news or social media approval. Be a source of making or doing something, anything. Be cool with mistakes and imperfections, they give it character. Learn a new skill. Make your bed. Do something.
PS: Stay away from uppers, downers, and booze. Btw, Missing a dose of mirtazapine felt exactly like a hangover, so it seems plausible that depression is only deepened by ab/use of some substances. Instead, Maslow's hierarchy focus: exercise, sleep, diet, light, etc.
If you feel like you're having trouble doing it, you may be depressed or have some other issue that's causing feelings of hopelessness. Some hormone imbalances and nutrient deficiencies can cause that.
Everyone's reasons for living are different and specific. I would urge you to see a therapist who specializes in depression. I know the initial hurdle is high for some people, but if you feel like you have nothing to lose, why not try it?
I've decided that there so much to be thankful about that it overpowers those things that I can't control and stress me. So every time I feel down I start to think about the countless items that people do to help me every day. They're just so many. And it makes me realize how thankful I am and how lucky I am.
You might want to talk to someone that can give you some better advice.
I put this here just in case. Take care!
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Call 1-800-273-8255
Please ask for help if even if you think you don’t need it. Take care.
Make it a great day.
One day at a time, without thinking too much about the future or the past, where most of the problems usually are.
> What's the point
Some find the point of life in the physical world, through their job, travel or some other activities, other need more spiritual food, whether it's philosophy or religion. Personally, I need both or after a while I feel out of balance.
Those questions are old as the world, so don't despair, you're not alone, and there are answers out there.
Take a look at some volume of air near you - would you rather be that particular emptiness? (not quite empty, but you get the point - and you can also pick some block of vacuum...). So basically the choice is - continue living or become a block of vacuum.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dp4dpeJVDxs
On what is the reason to continue living: To be in harmony with nature.
I suggest reading from the great philosophers: https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/life-meaning/