- When I leave a place normally they need to hire 3-5 people to replace me and I feel like a shitty manager as people say I don't delegate enough
- I burn out
- There is a lot of technical debt because we moved so fast to hit business goals
- I have my finger in many many projects and am the kind of business guru in all of them (understand business better than sales and IT as well)
- recruiting is hard because I want to try to find people like myself which are rare and expensive.
I have justified this to myself as I am saving the company money. Any suggestions on how to manage this and avoid getting painted as a poor manager and better balance the whole thing? Maybe I should get out of IT and just hire people? Maybe I should just run everything like projects - but if I don't put my head in the weeds I don't fully understand stuff?
If you worked at the pace required for the organization to "get it" each step of the way nothing would get done and you would have no evidence of success.
^ This is true to at least some degree IMO. Now on to you:
Can you find a way to be the 5x engineer who also communicates what the organization needs to know each step of the way? This means written and verbal communication, ahead of others having to ask for it.
In this way, you build a trail of documents that can be referenced as those who don't get it can be linked to along the way.
Back to the nature of IT: I see a lot of folks in positions of authority who are willing to drag the organization down into their slow pace by not really understanding what the hell is going on and dictating. (his doesn't sound like you but this person is in a position of authority wherever you are working)