This is a serious question
This is not to say that the intelligence services don’t target people for surveillance or physical attack. They do. But what you’re saying doesn’t add up. It’s possible you may be suffering from paranoid delusions.
If you go and speak to a psychiatric professional, in the case that you are not delusional, it will not harm you. In the case that you are, they will help you detect that and assist you appropriately.
Good luck, and I hope things get better for you.
What are you a whistle-blower regarding?
"Iwan Danilo Krüger" returns no hits in Google, so telling us that this is who you are like we're supposed to know this name seems nonsensical...